Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I felt like Jesus today...I think
It's tough to manage your thoughts when there is more holding you down than lifting you up. It sure is good that the few items lifting me up are stronger. I am currently working on a B.S., M.A., and Ph. D. all at the same time while working 3 jobs. It sounds like a lot and it is, but it's really the emotional weights that pull on me, not the stresses on my academics. You see, when it comes right down to it, I only reach out for achievements because they help in other areas of my life, or they keep me sound of mind, or they allow me more freedom physically and financially. Today though, I recieved a phone call from my significant other, and realize the damage the distance is doing. You see there are different types of distances in a relationship, but the one that concerns me is the connectivity of our emotions currently. I realized that I don't like how she is beginning to get used to being without me physically, and that yanks on me. I also realized why Jesus never leaves our hearts, but can really miss us at times. If he were sitting in my living room and I just walked right by him, recognizing he was there, but ran out the door with my coffee ready for work without saying a word?--I felt like Jesus. Sonya is a wonderful woman, and I love her very much, but think I am really beginning to realize that respect and responsibility are not all that holds a house together. I geuss you could say it was a DA!!! moment, but someone has to be in your house in order to consider them a part of your household. My house has been dirty with clutter and filled with love, but today...I knew a part of me was not there. your relationship with Jesus is no different. We must all concentrate on him first for our lives to feel right.
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I was just wondering what kind of B.S., M.A., and Ph.d are in? I didn't know you could get them at the same time!
Well, technically, I am working on progressive projects that will go towards them all, but no, you are right that you can't get them all at the same time. actually, my B.S. is long overdue comming to me and some of the work I have been doing since I finished my actual course work for it, has also been going toward higher educational opportunities. T answer your question though, I am finishing a thesis for a B.S. in Biology, and I am working on projects that progress into a Masters in Religion, as well as a Ph. D. in Religion. Much of the work I am doing is online or fast tracked so it makes it more flexible when I may actually recieve these acheivments, but its a work in progress.
what school are you attending?
I am actually doing online conferences, reading books, and performing tests through ministry programs to recieve these accreditations. The education is great, but what it's doing to affirm my faith is beyond any heart-felt thank you I've ever given.
So, I'll be the one to ask. If you are receiving these "accreditation" through conferences, reading, etc and not through an bible school, seminary or theological school - what kind of merit do these accreditation actually have? I'm sure that they are providing you with education and expanding your mind greatly but if they aren't backed from any credible christian seminary, they are truly going to be rubbish (as paul would say). I would just caution you as to how you lean on these certificates, if they are for your own self-knowledge then do not post it all over the world.
And for goodness sakes finish that BS degree!! Even if you want to do full time ministry with a church or a christian organization they want their employees to have a bachelor's of something. And I bet if you finished that degree you would be able to work one job, instead of three, and then have more time to spend with Sonya. AND, she would not be as stressed out.
I know I come off as harsh or a jerk or whatever, but I've been reading your blogs and hers, and that's the best advice i can offer.
On the outside looking in, things can look rather simple
but on the inside looking out, it's just not that easy.
I understand your concerns, but I am working very hard, not ignoring any commitments or responsibilities, while in fact taking on more and all these ministry degree programs are internationally accredited. Patience and hard work are what is really going to get me some place, not to mention my deepest desire to follow God's way. It is only Him I wish to Boast in, so what ever accomplishments he allows me, I am very thankful for. There is no need to ask me to feel guilty or contemplate the skepticism I have already put into practice. I express my gratitude to God for all that he has given me this holiday season and that is all I wish to advertise. His Grace, His Mercy, and His gifts. It is only respectful to my creator to give back and live joyfully in his presence. The distance has been hard on Sonya and I, but I have been praying, and I am simply doing what it takes to progressively follow the road all the members of my family need me to stay on. The time is comming to take more steps in life, but progress is more important right now than trying to be something I can't fulfill just yet. Times are economically tough and because it takes two, some active waiting must be done on both sides of our relationship. I appreciate your concern once again, and thanks for being a good friend, but we are doing better than what may really be presented to you. I hope you are having a wonderful time out in California and that the internship went well. God bless my sister in Christ.
Why won't you put the name of the ministry programs that you are doing?
I am not sure I understand what the big deal about answering that question is. Not saying that he shouldn’t answer it, I just don’t understand why the rush; he isn't online as much as I am, after all.
It is important because when you start saying that these degrees will give some level of credibility then it is only reasonable to know where the degrees are coming from. This is especially true in the internet age.
I suggest you be careful when using the internet to evaluate someone's credibility. I put forth much effort to gain the respect I have, and it may not be all that evident through a tool as manipulative as the internet. If you must know, I have aquired both my Master's and Ph. D. now and both came to me through the work I did for the ULC Monestary in Modesto, California. Being a Christian I certainly did not agree with everything the school taught, but some of my other credentials also speak for me as well. World Christianship Ministries is who I have earned credit as a Pastor and Counselor through. Many of the texts I evaluated are the same as those which I would study at a traditional Seminary School, so I have full confidence in my credentials. I believe in the bible, though I have studied much philosophy, and I still think Jesus is the most worthy leader to God. If it is me you wish to evaluate, then first please read John 3:17, Romans 14:4, and 1 Peter 4:17. Then persuaded or not, feel free to judge. My heart lies with Christ either way.
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